Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Today's Thoughts

Dear Journal once more good evening here I am again. Well Christmas is a few days gone and let me tell you what's happening in the world.

Stores are already putting out Valentines Day decorations for example : big red heart wreaths, candles in the shape of hearts, heart shaped pillows and decorative cards. Perhaps I will find myself a Valentine ? Though I'm really hoping to just hear those 5 little words "will you be my Valentine ?" Because I will certainly jump at the chance to be someone's Valentine which would be a new experience for me. The thing is its not even February yet and already stores are filled with hearts and big red balloons. Maybe a guy will ask me to be his because you never know. I'm sure that floral shops will certainly be busy come the month of February with the making of bouquets flooded with flowers and poetic declarations of love. Who knows maybe I might end up with my own bed of roses, I'm hoping dear journal I'm hoping.

Monday, December 27, 2004

A Little Background....if your Michael Vick We Need To Talk

Dear Journal Christmas is now officially gone and New Year's Eve is upon us as well as a whole new year. During New Year's Eve a lot of people usually make resolutions whether its to go on a diet, not doing certain things or working towards some goal. I on the other hand I never stick to the resolutions that I make in the first place even though I try or at least say I will stick to it. My resolution that I will try to make is to stop talking about my non-existent love life which seems to be the major topic of my journal. Talking about my non-existent love life is beginning to become tiring even to me so that is my resolution. Of course I could say that I'm going to try to lose weight but I don't think that will last for 2 seconds to be quite honest with you dear journal so I really can't stick to that resolution. But I could say lots of things.

On a different less uninteresting note the weather here is still a little bit cold though winter's deep freeze is letting up quite a bit which is fine by me. I feel that if it has to be cold it should be followed by a few inches or more of snow or at least some little hints of white powder.

On a more opposite note its time for FOOTBALL season which I'm sure tons of guys are loving this time of the season. Dear journal I'm sure if you ask guys all over the world you could say its a perfect time for cold beer and a comfortable recliner which I'm sure many guys would say that those two things are a must during this time of the season. I DON'T know much about football I just can't get into it except one huge thing - Michael Vick. Any woman will say that's the only reason they sit through an entire football game just to see Mr. Vick himself in action even I would have to agree with that.

That's about all dear journal so good night and I will return soon hopefully with a few exciting updates in my life one never can tell not even me.

Saturday, December 25, 2004

Thoughts For December 25th

Dear Journal its officially December 25th which is Christmas. I got a few things which I have to be grateful for. I was hoping more than anything for a boyfriend this year. I could have asked for anything within reason yet I wanted the impossible.

All in all Christmas seemed to take forever to get here and now its practically gone. After days and days and weeks and weeks it came and went. I didn't make a list this year of what I wanted because I only wanted one thing, one huge thing. What I really want most of all is my 1st kiss - my very 1st kiss. Everything is a big deal to me. I don't know dear journal I just don't know. Merry Christmas dear journal.

Monday, December 20, 2004


Dear Journal I was thinking about something that kind of brought up more stuff in my what I like to call "there's something wrong with me" syndrome. As everyone knows after Christmas comes New Year's Eve which I am so not looking forward to. I never look forward to New Year's Eve or Valentines Day for that matter. I'm sure many would ask why so I will be more than willing to tell you but in my own way. I'm the only one who never gets kissed by a guy though it would be nice to be kissed by a guy who loves me and I loving him in return.

I've never had a boyfriend to share these thoughts with and it would be awkward to share these thoughts with anyone else. I just find it easier to tell these thoughts with myself. I know that it sounds weird but it works and at least I'm consistent often enough. So here I have given you some background in the chronicles of my life thus far. Good night dear journal.

Sunday, December 19, 2004

What I Want For Christmas

Well good evening dear journal here I am again. I'm not going to complain like I usually do so I'm sure that will be a welcome change. Well its almost December 25th which is officially a holiday which the world knows as Christmas. I haven't really told anyone what I want for Christmas which is one of the things that I am going to have do before its too late. I'm sure people are curious to know what I want for Christmas so I came to you dear journal to get my thoughts clear. I could ask for a couple of things like clothes, CD's, a few items from the Victoria Secrets store, jewelry or just a little something. What I actually want dear journal doesn't come from a store and its what you might call a tall order to fill. The one thing that I want for Christmas is a "BOYFRIEND". I know that sounds like a huge something to ask for but its all I have ever wanted more than anything. Some people might laugh if I told them but I have to be honest. Out of all the things in the world that I could ask for I end up asking for a boyfriend. I guess its better than asking for money or a sweater that I might receive for Christmas yet never wear. I guess you can say I might not get what I want but I just hope that I do. Who knows maybe Cupid will arrive a little early this year and work a little miracle just for me......maybe......maybe......

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Saturday's Thoughts

Hello greetings and salutations and all of that other stuff. Well here I am again. Today all kinds of stores were packed and filled with people which I'm sure is not shocking since there's only a few more days until "Christmas". People were rushing around doing their pre-Christmas shopping which by looking at the parking lots today seemed to be the biggest shopping day of the year. Me, I was one of them but that's not what I wanted to talk about.

Today there was a cashier working at the World Market store today and let me tell you dear journal he was a nice looking guy. The problem was another cashier came along and ruined the moment which when it comes to men that always seems to be my luck. I have zero luck with men. Someone probably needs to hit me over the head with a stupid stick. I have complained a lot to you dear journal that I know its sickening but I just had to tell you my news today. I just want to know what its like to fall in love one time in my life is that too much to ask for ?? I just don't know.

Friday, December 17, 2004

Depressing Day

Today I'm having one of those not so great days. I'm feeling sorry for myself and I'm wallowing. Christmas is almost here and I will be single yet again and honestly dear journal that is nothing new. New Year's will be rolling around and you guess it I will NOT be getting kissed at the stroke of midnight. It's awful being single during the holidays. I am wallowing in a lot of my crap. There should be a support group for people like me - Hello and yes I'm wallowing in self pity. Is there anything more depressing than that ?? I think not !!!!!

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

A Little Bit of Weird News

Here I am as usual so good evening dear journal. I have a little bit of weird news to share with you tonight so here it goes. My news has to do with "Bubble Wrap" of all things. I know your probably thinking why BUBBLE WRAP ? Well once in a while I would like to share something a little bit out of the ordinary. Bubble Wrap that most ubiquitous of protective packaging was introduced in the 1960's.  In 1957, engineers Alfred Fielding and Marc Chavannes originally conceived Bubble Wrap as a wallpaper. Clearer heads prevailed, and the product was re-invisioned as a packaging material. The odd part is that there is actually a Bubble Wrap Appreciation Day which is the last Monday in January. Here is a little bit of interesting information for Bubble Wrap enthusiasts - one square foot of bubble wrapping contains approximately 810 bubbles. Office Depot for example, sells enough Bubble Wrap each year to wrap around the earth twice.

On a more eventful note my 2nd grade Religious Education class is had their 1st Christmas party with me. The kids enjoyed the party and their excitement was quite evident. I'm glad that the party went off without any problems at all. My kids are wonderful and quite smart I must say. I enjoy them with every class. I just wonder if they will remember me a few months from now when I am no longer with them. I will remember them that's for sure dear journal. I guess that's the important thing that I really need to remember. This was quite a day for me that's for sure. For now good night dear journal I'm sure that I will be back soon as usual.

Monday, December 13, 2004

A Few Thoughts

Good evening Winter's deep freeze has officially arrived. It is quite cold and beyond freezing. With weather like this there should at least be snow or a hint of flurries in the forecast. I think its only proper for a little snow to fall with the temperature below 0.

On a different subject everyone said that the sky was full of meteor showers but I didn't see a thing in the sky except the usual stars which you don't have to have a telescope to see. Looking for meteor showers you might as well pull a muscle or two in order to see something at all. I really didn't see a hint of meteors or showers for that matter. I wonder if I'm the only one who didn't see anything. I can't say that I saw one little meteor shower at all.  I am thinking that I might just call NASA and sue for false advertising. Though I'm not at all shocked . I bet I would have had a better chance of finding Nessie the Loch Ness Monster or even Bigfoot for that matter or better yet finding a needle in a haystack.

Sunday, December 12, 2004

Lake Lanier's Magical Nights of Lights

Good evening dear journal here I am again. First things first - I went with my parents and two of my nieces to Lake Lanier's "Magical Nights of Lights".

Lake Lanier's Magical Nights of Lights was beyond amazing and description. The various lights were quite picture perfect. They had lights of many shapes, sizes and color. At Lake Lanier they had amusement park rides, cotton candy, hot dogs, hot apple cider and the roasting of marshmallows. It was fun for the young and old. The North Pole had fallen to earth and come to life. This place was totally real. Dear journal the aromas at this place was beyond great. You could smell the marshmallows roasting, the cotton candy, the hot dogs cooking and Christmas itself became an aroma of pure rich delight.

Kids were up way past their bed times riding on rides, eating cotton candy and getting sticky fingers from roasted marshmallows and spun cotton candy. This place had it all and then some. Everyone should experience this place to learn the true meaning of Christmas time. I still can't believe all that I saw and heard. After having been to this one place I know what inspired the story of Peter Pan in fact I could have written it myself after this night. Dear journal there is no place on earth like this. Who could have ever thought of something so wonderful ? I can't wait until next year to do it all over again.

The only sad part for me is that I saw couples there holding hands, hugging and kissing. Being single it was hard to see. I wanted to be one of those women in one of those moments. I couldn't really help but look and be envious. I wish I could have been one of those women. Everything else was great and worth every minute. 

Saturday, December 11, 2004

News for another Saturday

Good evening its me again but of course who else would it be but me ? So here it is a particularly cold Saturday evening. It almost feels like winter with weather like this. Though it should only be cold if it is followed by a few inches or more of snow in my opinion of course. Tonight I went over to my cousin's house which is always a production. He is a father of young children and he is also a husband which is saying a lot.

What I am about to say might sound a little weird but its still true. I am hoping to receive a boyfriend for Christmas. I wonder if its odd for a 28 year old woman to want a boyfriend for Christmas. I have to say that I don't want to have children of my own that would be a comedy in itself. Some people are good at being parents if you ask me I don't think that I would be. I prefer being an aunt to my nieces and nephews which I'm sure they would agree with me being an aunt. I can spoil them all and not have any responsibility for raising them and that part I enjoy most of all. I think parenting requires a lot of growing up and taking responsibility for the health and well being of a child. I am not ready for being someone's mom its just not in me to be given the role of parent not in the least. Right now I just want to jump into "The Many Rituals of Dating" but that also requires finding someone which doesn't seem to be happening at the prior moment.

I really wish that finding someone were as easy as it is seen in "Bridget Jones' Diary" now that would be something. I want her life especially her boyfriend. I keep a diary which only tells of living "The Single Life". I could write a book on that. "Living the Single Life" which wouldn't end up being on Oprah's book club list.

Friday, December 10, 2004


Hello again good evening here I am.  Well I said that there was no nice looking guys here at my job but  there is more than one actually. I haven't become a flirt I just want to admit a few truths. There's quite a few gorgeous guys here at my work.  The guys each have certain physical attributes ( eyes, a beard, style of dressing, a nice smile, height and voice ) etc. etc. etc.

In other news interrupting his  hibernation, the world's most famous groundhog cast a shadow Tuesday over a Capitol hill debate about wasteful Government spending. Punxsutawney Phil, noted seasonal prognosticator was awakened and hauled before the TV cameras in an attempt to rebut charges that $100,000  in federal funds for a weather museum in his hometown amounted to pork barrel spending.

"Pork" is a derogatory term used to describe government spending intended to benefit constituents of a particular lawmaker in hopes of gaining their support.

The Punxsutawney Weather Discovery Center was among about 12,000 grants for "special projects" -called "earmarks". On Capitol hill lawmakers inserted into the $388 billion spending bill that Congress sent to President Bush on Tuesday. From his Appropriations Committee , Representative Peterson was able to secure $100,000 for the Weather Museum. The $100,000 will go to buy displays for the educational museum, which will tell about the history, science, technology and folklore of weather said Peterson. The $100,000 amount was my figure but they wanted more. However it is known that Punxsutawney Phil  is normally aroused on Groundhog's Day which is February 2nd. It is said that if he sees his shadow, six more weeks of winter will follow.  How is it that so much can depend on a Groundhog ????? Someone please tell me.



Monday, December 6, 2004

News, news, news

First things first good evening. Well I have been under the weather recently from a cold so I haven't been able to come chat with you but here I am I'm on the comeback. Today I do have news. I haven't told a soul what I am about to tell you. I have news, news, news. I am greatly excited about what I'm about to share so bare with me. Today I took notice of a guy who occasionally comes up to my work to do some business. He isn't just a guy he is a great looking guy I would like to add. I had always wanted to ask him his name but I never did until today. Somehow I worked up the nerve to ask him. I won't mention his name I want to keep that to myself for now. Let me say again that he is great looking. I surprised myself today in going up to him and talking to him. I never went up to a guy and actually talked to him. This guy always smiles and says hello to me at work and for the first time I talked to him and it was great. Though I wish that I would have said more to him than just saying hello and by the way what's your name again ? I also wish that I would have told him what a nice looking guy he is which he definitely is. This guy this great looking guy I have to say he is far nicer looking than Vin Diesel, Johnny Depp, Brad Pitt and Tyrese I just hope that these guys don't mind me saying but this guy really was great. I am hoping that Vin, Johnny, Brad and Tyrese understand that they are no longer my #1 which I'm sure their girl friends and wives will appreciate.

Most of all dear journal I will never tell anyone what I tell you. I was quite proud of myself today for going up to this guy and talking to him. I really just hope that I see him again I really really do. My, my, my what secrets I tell you. What secrets I tell you indeed.

Friday, December 3, 2004

Under The Weather

Good evening here I am again well at least a little part of me anyway. I'm a little under the weather at the prior moment with a cold. It's almost Christmas and I'm coming down with a cold at the worse possible holiday of all holidays. Dear diary you might not be hearing from me for a while. I might as well be put in absolute isolation until I am recovered from this cold. I hope that I'm better in a day or two so at least I can feel halfway myself again. I feel like my head is under water which is not a fun feeling. I wonder if they could put me in the hospital in which they could prescribe Collin Firth or George Clooney to be my doctor I would happily be sick in the hospital for that.

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Tuesday's Notes

Hello ! Its me again. I've been reading a book titled "The Gift" by Nora Roberts. Nora Roberts is a great writer. "The Gift" is a perfect book to read for the holidays if your into little love stories, that is. The writing of Nora Roberts in my opinion is quite poetic and heart warming. Its quite easy to see why she is the #1 New York Times bestselling author.

On a different note the month of December is here once again. Christmas won't be too far behind. The weather just won't make up its mind. Its either extremely cold or warm with a little chilled breeze or its raining. I wonder with weather like this if we are going to get any snow here in Georgia I just don't know. Who knows maybe Colorado will decide to share some of its snow with us here in Atlanta that would be something.

Monday, November 29, 2004

Monday's news

Good evening world here I am again. Here's a little personal note that I will share with you - my favorite show on television is "West Wing" though I can't tell you why because I don't understand it myself to tell you why. I can say that Martin Sheen plays a great President on the show. I really have to admit that I have told you a great many things that might seem irrevelant to anyone else but there it is.

On a different subject it is beginning to look a lot like Christmas more and more. Grocery stores are putting Christmas trees out for sale, decorations on the shelves and Christmas tunes play on the radio. Just when everyone was getting ready for Thanksgiving now everyone is getting for the next holiday which is Christmas. It seems like we are all jumping from one holiday to the next. Its really kind of weird when you think about it. Next thing you know it will be New Year's Eve. My favorite of all is New Year's Eve especially "Dick Clark's Rocking Eve" and watching the Peach drop on television.

What I will miss about this time of year is Autumn which is my favorite season of all. Happy Holidays everyone good night.

Sunday, November 28, 2004

Sunday Entry

Good evening here I am again. I said that I wasn't going to come here and complain but I'm going to do it anyway so here it goes. Its hard travelling solo otherwise known as being single. When it comes to finding someone I'm seriously going to need some self-help either that or find a psychiatrist.I don't know if thinking about this continuesly is going to change anything but my being single is a preoccupation of my mine. I'm 20something and still single and the forecast never seems to change. I'm beginning to think that I have what's known as the "There's something wrong with me syndrome". I'm living single and yet it feels like I'm living in the land of forever single in my twentysomething years of my life. Pretty soon I'm going to have a join a Dating Service because I'm getting less and less hopeful that I will ever find someone. I will probably end up being eaten by a pack of wild dogs or surrounded by a million cats before I turn 30 which I'm hoping doesn't happen. Honestly I think that I might end up becoming the world's oldest living single woman in the world which is a really really scary thought for any woman to think about. Of course I could write my own self-help book on being single when everyone else around me is married and part of the book would include being single nearing the point of jumping off the nearest bridge, just kidding. In the end I just needed to say a few things either that or spontaneously combust.

Saturday, November 27, 2004

A Day Spent Being Lazy

Hi !! good evening here I am again. Well quite honestly I spent the day just being lazy. I laid around and watched some movies I had rented and then I watched a little television. Some times we all need days where we do absolutely nothing and there's nothing wrong with that. I really wanted to see the movie "The Chronicles of Riddick" though because my favorite actor Vin Diesel is in the movie. Blockbuster said that all of them had been checked out and there was none on the shelves much to my displeasure. Just when I want to rent a good movie its never at the video store which can pretty much ruin a whole day in my opinion. I have to say that no one makes great movies like Vin Diesel does. In my honest opinion Vin Diesel is the epitome of "being male" to a young woman such as myself. I just had to add my 2 cents on that subject. Well that's all I have to say for now so good night world.

Friday, November 26, 2004



I'm having stomach pains

my eyes are red

and my arm hurts when it rains.


I almost bit my tongue in two

my ears are ringing

and I think I have the flu.


I can hardly talk

my nose is stuffed up

and my legs hurt when I try to walk.


My throat is all red

I might possibly have chicken pox

and I almost feel dead.


My toes  are swollen so they might just fall off

I could have the measles

and it really hurts when I cough.


Even now I can hardly see

 its hard getting out of my bed

and I might have a temperature of one hundred and three.


I almost forgot - I don't have school until Monday

so I'll just pull the covers up over my head

and sleep in for the rest of the day.


By: Monae Doyle

Inspired by my mom and 2 nieces who have been sick recently

and my favorite writer Shel Silverstein







After Thanksgiving Thoughts

Good morning !! In my opinion after Thanksgiving shopping is like The Running of the Bulls in Pamplona, its that wild. It's also like watching squirrels stocking up for winter time. I went into Kohl's today which is a store that I go to sometimes. I walked into Kohl's and I've never seen so many people in one place before. Cell phones were ringing left and right.

What's really amazing is that I saw 3 deers trying to cross a busy street. With homes being built and trees being cut pretty soon deers won't have any place to go. Before you know it deers will become extinct just like the dinosaurs who once roamed the earth.

On a different side of the news I read that today was being called "Black Friday". It was written in the newspaper that shopping over Thanksgiving weekend will be the lowest in a decade according to America's Research Group. Obviously they had it wrong because they didn't go to the stores like I did or they would have seen hordes of people stocking up on this, that and the other. After today the pockets of America will be empty and the economy will certainly be back in business.

Thursday, November 25, 2004

Thanksgiving Thoughts

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone !! Well today I had Thanksgiving with my family who happens to be my mom, dad and 2 of my nieces Megan and Jeanette. We had a lovely Thanksgiving dinner and dessert. I have to say that no matter where you are in the world its only a matter of who is with you. I am with my family and that is what I am grateful for. I am glad that I am here with them than to be anywhere in the world. We should find something to be grateful for no matter what it is. I am sure grateful for my family who loves me and I love them. I would rather be here at home than to be with anyone else. If I had to choose who I wanted to be with for the holidays it wouldn't be with a celebrity or any famous person it would be with the people that love me most of all. I am glad that I have the people in my life that I know love me more than anything in the world.In the end all holidays should be like this.......beyond perfect.

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

Last minute thoughts

Good evening here I am again . It was another one of those rainy drowsy kind of days. As a reminder Thanksgiving is only 1 more day away so it's last minute grocery shopping for many tomorrow and I'm sure that I will be one of those people. Work has been keeping me busy as usual which is of course nothing new . I wonder how many people are cooking for Thanksgiving this year ? I wonder if there will be hundreds maybe thousands then again there might not be that many cooking in the world. I wonder if there's anyone in the world who thinks things like this besides me ? Well I guess that's about it for now dear void good night .

Monday, November 22, 2004

Before The Holidays Cleaning

Good evening. It's been one of those rather grey drowsy kind of days here in the South. Well Thanksgiving is almost here and so is Christmas. It's time once again for the usual ritual of eating enough food which would most likely feed a third world country and then some. On the news it is reported that some people will be heading out of town to visit in-laws for the holidays while others will have in-laws flown in from different parts of the world. I'm not one of those people. I'm usually at home with relatives for Thanksgiving so we don't have any big time rituals which some people have. The one part of Thanksgiving that I like most though is watching the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade on television. So what else can I say ?  Happy Holidays Everyone good-night.

Saturday, November 20, 2004

Stuff For Saturday

I don't feel chatty today I just want to get to the point of what I have to say. Thanksgiving and Christmas is soon to come and now I'm feeling less and less excited as the days go by. I don't feel as "wow" about the holidays as I had a week ago. As the holidays near I am feeling uh.......NOT so much. Maybe I just had a long day. I might wake up tomorrow and feel differently you never know.

Has anyone ever had days like this ? Then again maybe its just me. Maybe, maybe not.......

Thursday, November 18, 2004

Thursday's Thoughts

Hello good evening world. Since Thanksgiving is only a few days away I was thinking about the holidays which got me to thinking about all of the traditions of Thanksgiving. I was curious to know how different parts of the world celebrate Thanksgiving. I was also thinking that it would be interesting to know how places like India, China, Hawaii, Russia, Australia, Jamaica, Sweden, Norway, Boston, London and Alaska celebrate their holidays. I wonder if the holidays in other parts of the world are different from mine.

On a different note I was also thinking about the soldiers who are still in Iraq and I got to thinking that the soldiers might not be able to be home with their families for the holidays. I hope that they are able to return home to be with their families on this Thanksgiving. We should all be grateful that we get to be with our families because our troops might not be able to have that opportunity. I just hope that they will be.

In other news it was reported that a 72-foot tall white pine tree was placed atop Rich's Macy's store at Lenox Square on Wednesday. Following tradition of course, the tree will be lighted on Thanksgiving for all of the world to see.

I hope that everyone has a wonderful and memorable holiday. HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE !!!! good night.

P.S. everyone who has a chance should read the journal of a woman named Marainey on AOL journals. She is a truly sweet person and one heck of a writer. Her journal is quite memorable to read. Everyone should check out her journal before the holidays.

Wednesday, November 17, 2004


Hello good evening here I am. Once more good evening here I am. As you can tell I am quite excited. Let me begin without making introduction. John Scalzi the writer sent me an entry he wrote about how he opens a bar of chocolate. Well after reading that I was so excited that my thoughts got ahead of me as they are now. I AM A CHOCOHOLIC let me repeat I AM A CHOCOHOLIC and I'm not ashamed to say it. I love CHOCOLATE yes I love CHOCOLATE. I rip open a bar of chocolate with reckless abandon. I love HERSHEY bars, HERSHEY kisses, HERSHEY with almonds. I love CHOCOLATE doughnuts, peanuts, pancakes, ice-cream, cookies you name it. I have to say that I love GODIVA CHOCOLATES those are my favorite.

I would love it if the HERSHEY company would adopt me as their spokesperson or perhaps as their adopted long lost daughter. I wouldn't mind that at all. I would love it if I were given the key to the city of HERSHEY, PENNSYLVANIA or as I love to call it "heaven on earth". I also have an idea in mind for the HERSHEY company. How about a CHOCOLATE line like foam baths, soaps, perfume, powder and lotions and the ingredients would be made from real CHOCOLATE....hint...hint...hint...How's that for an idea or two. All of the products would be edible wouldn't that be something ????

Women all over the world could soak in a tub of edible CHOCOLATE bubbles. Women who are great fans of CHOCOLATE would run out and buy the products in droves and I would be one of them.  Hint...hint...hint...hint....

Monday, November 15, 2004

Monday's Memo

Good evening ! Its officially cold here in Georgia. Another week is here and there's a few things that I'm looking forward to, one being Thanksgiving and the other being the annual lighting of "The Great Tree", which takes place on Thanksgiving night which just so happens to usher in the holiday season which historically began 57 years ago at Rich's downtown store for which is now officially closed and that I am sad to report.

I can also tell you that I am looking forward to Christmas which is quickly followed by New Year's Eve. I usually stay up to see Dick Clark's Rocking Eve on television which has become something of a holiday tradition for me. It all begins - The arrival of the holidays though winter decided to come a little early.

Lastly my favorite holiday is Christmas. Christmas is all about putting up the Christmas tree, adding its decorations, singing to Christmas carols on the radio and drinking warm egg nog. Mainly I have to say that Christmas is just one in a list of my favorite things.  So let me ask this question can anything be more perfect than the holidays ??? I have to say that I hardly think not. 

Sunday, November 14, 2004

Sunday's Notes

Here I am again good afternoon world. Well here is a little note of some things that I find hard to believe. The actor Tony Danza is hosting a talk show. I've seen people eat road kill on a show famously known as "Fear Factor" and now this.

I wonder what will happen next. Perhaps Jerry Springer will become the next Presidential leader, I'm kidding then again that could happen. Does anyone feel the same way ???

Saturday, November 13, 2004

Another Note For Saturday

Hello again its me. Well I thought I would add something personal as if I don't do that anyway. If someone were to ask me what my favorite movie is I would have to say "84 Charing Cross Road". 

The actor Anthony Hopkins played the role of Frank Doel very well. I think that the movie"84 Charing Cross Road" was a delightful old movie based on real people. I only wish I knew someone who had the book because I would really like to read the book. I am an avid book reader so the movie was great for someone like me. I don't know of anyone else who is a fan of the movie by that I mean I have never met anyone who has told me that they are a fan of the movie.

It rarely comes on television which is awful. It would be nice if the movie came on television more for fans like myself. I wonder if anyone else feels the same way.

A note for Saturday

Hello here I am again good evening. I don't really have anything to say. I just wanted to write a little note for this evening. It's another Saturday night and I don't really know what would be good to see on television. My niece who is 12 years old has a friend spending the night here at the house. It's easy for my niece to make friends but me I just find it hard to make friends with people. I'm not a very social person. I rarely go out unless I'm with my family and my nieces. You could say that I'm more of a quiet person. I guess that's why I started keeping a journal. My journal is a place that I can express my thoughts and perhaps share news that I find of interest. I kind of feel that it's strange that I have gone public with my thoughts but maybe it's not so strange at all. Who knows what I might say next you just never know.

If anyone should come along to read my thoughts I would like if they would leave a reply or two just to let me know if anyone has read these thoughts of mine.

Dear visitors to this journal - feel free to leave a comment or a reply to let me know your thoughts on any of my thoughts. Thanks and good night.

Friday, November 12, 2004


Here I am again on this Friday evening hello world. Well the weather today was quite dank. Just saying the word dank sounds pretty awful in my opinion. On a day like this if Edgar Allan Poe were still alive he probably would have written another one of his dark haunting poems that he is remembered for. My favorite poem of his was "The Raven".

One last note I am seriously going to have to get around to dating sometime in the near,near,near future. I can't wait around for Fabio forever, just kidding. Well good night world .

Thursday, November 11, 2004

Thoughts for Thursday

Today I had a day of too much perfection. I was off of work today and of course I went shopping. Of course I didn't contribute to the gross national product though. It was a cold grey rainy day. Days like this remind me of the poem "Stopping By Woods On A Snowy Evening" which was written by Robert Frost.

You might say that its getting to look a lot like Christmas. It's also that time of year for building snowmen, putting up decorations for the holidays, buying groceries for holiday dinners, calling up relatives you haven't seen in a while. The holidays are pretty great in many different ways. Personally speaking I can't wait until Christmas which is another favorite time of year for me. Most of all I just love the holidays. Does anyone feel the same way ?

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Seinfeld Reunion

Here I am again !! I am quite happy about The Seinfeld Reunion  which will be back in November I can't wait. Will anyone else be watching ??? Who has a favorite pick of the show ? Mine was " The Soup Nazi ". Seinfeld was my favorite show by far.

Wednesday's Notes

Spam, Spam, Spam, Spam....SPAM makes British comeback. DON'T BE ALARMED ANYONE. Spam isn't just annoying garbage on the Internet anymore. The luncheon meat Spam is making a comeback in Britain. Its makers are spending more $3million in an ad campaign. Although it was invented in the United States and is produced largely in Denmark. Spam's yearly sales are up 10%.

Okay this has got to be a joke. Does anyone really eat spam like at all ? I have seen it at the grocery store but does anyone eat spam ? I can't see this becoming the latest trend among all the things to eat. I can't see SPAM becoming the world's greatest food. Am I the only one who feels this way ? Maybe I'm wrong. I just don't know.


Tuesday, November 9, 2004

Just In Time For The Holidays

Jones Soda, a beverage maker with a sense of humor, is starting to sell a package of five soft drinks tailored to Turkey Day. The mostly yucky - sounding offerings are Green Bean Casserole Soda, Mashed Potatoes and Butter Soda, Fruitcake Soda, Cranberry Soda and Turkey and Gravy Soda. Seattle-based Jones Soda, tried a similar stunt in 2003 when it offered just turkey and gravy. The stuff was so popular that bottles set aside for sale on the web sold out in 3 hours. Jones made just 15, ooo five - packs, and they'll be sold in a limited number of places, although the company will take orders via its web site. On Monday a pair of last year's bottles of Turkey and Gravy were being offered on e-bay at a starting bid of $40. Next thing you know they will be coming out with a Liver flavored soda. I just won't be drinking it.

Monday, November 8, 2004

Just A Few Thoughts

Here I am again. Well its coming on to my least favorite time of year. The trees outside my window are almost bare now. The leaves once filled with color are going all brown. It's that time of year - the early stages of winter. Pumpkins once orange are going rotten. The Halloween decorations are being put away for next year for the arrival of Thanksgiving. I like the holidays I just wish that Autumn would stay for a little while longer just for me anyway.

Sunday, November 7, 2004

Just A Little Note

I don't know why I feel the need to make my thoughts public record but I do. Some people can have thoughts and leave it at that. I end up coming back to you and sharing every detail of my life with the world.

I know that Anne Frank and Robyn Miller shared their thoughts with the world so maybe it's not so weird that I share mine as well. I also heard that the famous singer Alicia Keys keeps a diary so maybe I'm not so weird after all. Maybe I'm an interesting person at least I hope so. You never know.

Saturday, November 6, 2004

Saturday Evening News

Today my family and I went to a place known as Discover Mills. Inside was a place called "The Pro Bass Shop". I have to say that it was quite a place to see. Inside of Discover Mills there were all kinds of stores such as Off 5th Saks Fifth Avenue Outlet, ESPN X Games SkatePark and a ton of others.

We went to "The Pro Bass Shop". Inside was a huge aquarium filled with fish that were bigger than I would say a 6-year old child. One type of fish was called a Longnose Gar and another was called a Channel Catfish. They also had both Largemouth and Smallmouth Bass. Stepping inside of the Pro Bass Shop was like visiting an alternate universe not that I've ever been to an alternate universe I'm just saying. It was what I would call an indoor amusement park. What I like most was when my niece and I got on a wave motion machine which I can only describe as being on a rollercoaster. All in all it was a pretty amazing day.

On a different note I wonder if the people over in Haiti survivied the Hurricanes Ivan and Frances. I just hope that the people over there are doing better at least I hope so. For now good night world and good night dear void.

Friday, November 5, 2004

A little Golf news

Once again good evening. Let me ask this question when it comes to Golf who is the No. 1 ranked player, any ideas ? Well its not "The Tiger" its Mr. Vijah Singh. The 41-year-old Fijan finally ended Tiger's five - year reign atop the rankings. Singh won his second PGA title - and third major championship - at Whistling Straits in early August.

Singh has won nine events on the PGA Tour this year, and a record 10,725,166 in prize money. In six PGA events he won four times, at the Chrysler Championship. His total earnings in those six post - PGA events :  $ 3, 786,600. I might have to consider changing fathers. Maybe I could claim to be Vijah's long lost daughter, I'm kidding though that would be something indeed. Who wouldn't ???


Hello good evening here I am. For starters Jane Eisner wrote a column in the Atlanta Journal Constitution this morning. I have to say that its time for her to move on. She titled her column "There's a need to fear ; four more years are here".

I have moved on from the election. I have accepted that George Bush is President. I don't think that you can spend time being worried about things that might or might not happen. You can't worry about the next terrorist attack, another Beslan school massacre, another Bin Laden, the next war, the national budget deficit or fearing that progress might not be made.

Someone wise told me that fear is worse than the thing feared. John Kerry has gotten on with his life and George Bush is back to living in the White House. I really wanted John Kerry to be President but I realize now what had to happen. I can only say that I've heard enough about politics to last me a lifetime.

Now its time to get back to the important things in life like comedies and sitcoms that are more than happy to offer hours of mind numbing humor. Though I wouldn't mind going to the theatre to see a few movies like "The Grudge", Ladder 49, The Incredibles, Shark Tale, "Bridget Jones: The Edge of Reason, The Polar Express, National Treasure and Ocean's Twelve just to name a few.

Mainly I would like to ask when is George Clooney returning to E.R. because it hasn't been the same without him. Where is George when I need him ? On a different note the weather is changing by that I mean cold. The holidays are coming up though which happens to be something worth looking forward to. All in all I am doing quite well though I come here to you because frankly I can't remember shit, pardon the language. I must be getting old at a young age is that normal ???

Thursday, November 4, 2004

More Thoughts For Thursday

Its later in the evening and I feel much better. I spent the evening watching mindless entertainment on television. I watched "THE O.C." and E.R. I didn't watch anything informative and it was fun. I'm getting back to my life.  Fear Factor is the best. I can watch people eat a dead animals intestines. I can say that I love the show. You can't get any worse than that can you ????

Thursday's News

Hello world good evening. It's time for me to forget all about the election and George Bush's re-election. It's time for some new events. First I wanted to tell you why I started keeping a journal in the first place. A guy by the name of John Scalzi got me started writing. He has been giving assignments to writers like us at AOL Journals and so I decided to give it a shot so here I am.

I have decided not to talk about politics today. I could write a ton of my opinions on that subject but I won't. Instead I am happy that my favorite show "The O.C." is back on t.v. this evening which is exciting. I am a fan of the show. I wonder if anyone else would agree with me. This has been exciting and fun to start keeping a journal especially since I can say anything or talk about anything that I like.

I just have to say that once all of this election stuff is done with my life can get back to normal once and for all. I will be happy when I don't have to hear the word "Presidential" or election. Then I will quite ready to jump into other more exciting and less draining subjects such as politics.

Wednesday, November 3, 2004

Results Of The Presidential Election

Today I heard that John Kerry did not win the Presidential Election for which I am a little sad. This election left me less enthusiastic about the political process. I kind of feel like I don't want to vote in the next election.

I was a bit harsh a few minutes ago so before I go on let me start over with a little explanation. I'm trying to get over the fact that John Kerry won't be President tomorrow morning. I liked John Kerry and I was thinking that he would have made one hell of a President. I can't support George Bush for many reasons that I don't really want to get into.

I heard John Kerry's concession speech and I felt that he had a lot of heart and George Bush did not. I really feel that this election has changed me in a very big way. I used to think that in voting I was doing something great. John Kerry was a good man. George Bush on the other hand I don't know what he stands for anymore. John Kerry's concession speech was filled with heart but George Bush was practically laughing at Kerry for having lost the election. I don't want to stand behind a man that I feel hasn't got an ounce of heart. Kerry was a decent guy and yet tomorrow Bush will be President which leaves me with a saddened heart and no one can ever make it right.

Monday, November 1, 2004

A Little News Of My Day

Good evening world here I am !!! Well let me make it official today I went to vote by absentee ballot. Before the questions arise yes, yes and yes I voted for JOHN KERRY. I think that its time for a change and John is the change we all need. I'm 28 and I am a young voter and yes young adults like myself care about the political process. Tomorrow is November 2nd so I hope that everyone goes out to vote regardless of who they vote for as long as they get out and vote. Now I have said all that I'm going to say about politics because it's time to get back to the subject at hand.......me of course.

As you can tell I am doing extremely well. Work has been keeping me quite busy which never changes not that I'm complaining. If I stopped working I'd be at home letting my brain rot which wouldn't be anything good. It's good to get out and go to work and talk to people instead of me sitting at home in front of the television which would eventually turn me into a vegetable or worse a couch potato. Work keeps me busy and that's the way it should be. I'm doing pretty great and that's just fine by me.

Sunday, October 31, 2004

News For Sunday

Happy Halloween !

Happy Halloween !!   Well it's the night for black cats, pumpkins, witches, ghosts and goblins. It's also a night for scary movies and ghost stories. I wonder if there will be a full moon on this All Hallows Eve. On this night I kind of wonder if there's any ghosts roaming through Salem or if "The Headless Horsemen"still rides in search of a head. Sleep well if you can tonight because you never know if a restless spirit may pop in for a visit.

Saturday, October 30, 2004

It's My Saturday News

Happy Halloween !

For starters I'm a day early so forgive me. Second thing it's daylight savings time. I don't have much to say but I wanted to check in with you about my day. I am doing fine. I guess tomorrow will be the day for ghosts and goblins to roam and witches to cast their haunting spells. I'll have to be on the look out for any black cats. Sleep well on this All Hallows Eve good night.

Friday, October 29, 2004

Recent News

I haven't voted yet so I keep being reminded by people that there's only a few more days before election day. On a different note on the ABC NEWS a videotape was aired Thursday night in which a shrouded man who identified himself as "Azzam the American" claimed he was an American member of Al-Qaida. He made threats of future terrorist attacks in the U.S. He reported that "September 11th was but the opening salvo of the global war on America.

In my opinion we can't keep going the way we have been. A tape broadcast Thursday by ABC news also appeared to confirm suspicions reported earlier this month to the IAEA by Iraqi officials , who said that hundreds of tons of high-grade explosives, poweful enough to bring down buildings or detonate nuclear weapons, had vanished from the Al-Qaqaa site after the U.S. led invasion of Iraq. A U.S. intelligence official said the 377 tons of missing Iraqi high explosives are only a fraction of the weapons related material that has disappeared since the invasion. U.N. officials said they also are concerned about the disappearance of sensitive equipment and controlled materials that could be used to develop nuclear, biological or chemical weapons.

I'm worried about the state of our nation. I'm really not sure if we can overcome another terrorist attack. More than likely another terrorist attack would end up being an extreme act of violence. 

I can't say for sure what the outcome of all this will be. I just have to say that news such as this is far more morbid than anything Edgar Allen Poe could have ever written. 

Thursday, October 28, 2004


I wonder what radio stations and television news stations will talk about after this Presidential election is done. This one Presidential election has gone on forever. Everywhere you turn you are bombarded with news of the candidates or the election itself. I am becoming numb to the news of this election. I really wish that this election was over and done with. I am ready to get back to life without any thoughts of this election. I wish that people would talk about something else instead. It would be nice to hear about something that didn't involve voting.

Maybe we could talk about something a little exciting for example the fast approaching holidays now there is something that I would like to hear about. I would really like to talk about the joy of the holidays. Thanksgiving is almost here and so is Christmas. I would like to hear something that doesn't make me want to turn off the television. It would just be nice to get back to a life where we didn't talk about politics 24 / 7. I am ready to get back to my life without having to hear the words George Bush / John Kerry is that normal ?


Tuesday, October 26, 2004


Well today was one of those days. I had an evening of too much perfection. I went to this place that I had never been before. I found a place called "THE BOOK NOOK" which to me says it all. This place had it all-books, movies and CD's. Being the book lover that I am this place had a room full. I could have spent all day there. I can't wait to go back. I was like a kid in a candy store I didn't want to leave the book nook I really didn't. It had every book you can imagine and some of them were quite old.

Then the next perfect thing was the weather. It's been nice here in the peach state. The sky has been blue and the wind has been warm in a very pleasant way. Days like this are for picnics and going for walks in the park and eating ice-cream.

Once in a while it's nice to veer from one's normal routine which is a must from time to time. Sometimes you have to veer from the day to day routine of life and find something fun. Sometimes it's going someplace different that can change one's whole outlook on life. Today my day started out a routine and then later on I veered. Change can be a good thing you just have to enjoy it.

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Thoughts for Sunday

To begin I would like to start my notes off to you as if we are already in the middle of a conversation. Well recently I finished reading "Zlata's Diary".

The book was a diary of a young girl's life in Sarajevo. Zlata is a young girl who experienced the horror of war in Sarajevo. Zlata didn't suffer the same fate as Anne Frank did but they did experience the same extreme horrors of war.

My world is no different. At the moment the world in which I live is at war against terrorism in Iraq. We are also in the middle of a Presidential election. It's possible that this election won't change anything and its a shame that I'm not hopeful. In my opinion Anne, Zlata and Mattie are examples of great people.

On a different note the holidays are right around the corner. I really can't wait until the holidays. I just wonder what the holidays are like in other parts of the world. Good-night dear world.


Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Thoughts for Wednesday

A Longer Weekend... I think that would be a great idea. I think that a lot of people would get behind that. It would be nice to get ( 2 ) Fridays instead of one. It would be even better if we had ( 2 ) Saturdays instead of one. I think that tons of people all over the world would definitely go for a longer weekend especially those who have to work an entire week like me. It would be something if Friday was made into 2 days on the calendar. I think that the next President who ever he is should take into consideration. Wouldn't it just be something if Friday came twiceI look forward to Fridays because that means I will be sleeping in on Saturday. I think Saturday would be even better if it came twice a week. Weekends should be considered a national holiday, I'm just saying. 

P.S. There will be no more dear diary I am just going to turn my thoughts loose

Tuesday, October 19, 2004

Thoughts For Tuesday

Dear Diary,

Well here I am again as if anything is new. Well I am fine and so is everyone else here at home. Work is keeping be busy, busy, busy which is nothing new. Politically I am still undecided about who to vote for President. I don't know if I am going to vote for George Bush or John Kerry. I really don't know how I am ever going to decide on that one. I don't know if Bush or Kerry will really care if I vote or not. Voting for a President is a major thing especially to me. It's hard enough deciding what kind of coffee you want in the morning let alone who you want to choose for President of the United States. Dear diary I would hate to hear that the Presidential election came down to one vote and I was the only one who had not yet went to vote. I really don't want to think about if it came down to my 1 vote. Choosing the right President is huge how can anyone leave that decision up to me ?????

Thursday, October 14, 2004

JUst A Little News

Dear Diary,

         Hello! Hello! Hello! Good evening dear diary here I am again. Well I watched 2 of the Presidential debates and only a few minutes of the last one which I'm NOT sorry about in the least. I have kept up with some of the Presidential election through newspapers and television so that's pretty good I have to say. I am now at the point where I am tired of the Presidential election. Right now I have to say that I can't wait until Nov. 2 when I will cast my vote and it will all be over. I am ready to get back to my life without having to hear about politics every 5 minutes of my day. It will be nice when Bush or Kerry steps into the oval office and my life will return to its normally scheduled programming. I am ready for all of the talk of politics and debates to be over and done with at least for me dear diary. I have to say that I have found that I'm pretty funny at least to me that is. That's all I have to say on that topic.

On a different note work has been keeping me busy, busy, busy as usual. I am also doing fine. I am ready to hear other kinds of news like Martha Stewart in prison or Michael Jackson's latest problem, just kidding. So I guess you can say that I haven't been doing much of anything but working or coming to you dear diary as usual time and time again and again of course.

Fall has certainly arrived and the weather has gotten quite brisk. I'm sure that Winter is just around the corner. It's a perfect time for a big cup of hot apple cider. Who else would feel this way but me dear diary ????  Good - night.

Thursday, October 7, 2004

October Thoughts

Dear Diary, 


      Autumn has arrived. Autumn is full of wonderful things. Autumn arrives with its leaves changing and the air, crisp. There are a lot of things that I like about about Autumn. I am flooded with thoughts of candy corn, baked apples, brown paper bags,the aroma of cinnamon and vanilla, pumpkins and pumpkin pie, hot apple cider with a hint of nutmeg, Halloween decorations, hot chocolate with marshmallows, curling up with a warm blanket, watching old movies on t.v., chicken noodle soup, cotton candy and a whole lot more. As you can tell dear diary I love, love, love, love, love Autumn. I love this time of year with all of its colors. I like to see the earth bathed in Autumn colors- brown, red, yellow, orange and green. Everything is nice during this time of year and there's something magical in the air. How can anyone not like this time of year dear diary ?


On a different note Tiger Woods got married and it wasn't to me. He broke a lot of hearts today but it didn't break mine not in the least. I wish Tiger all the best and nothing but happiness but he wasn't my type which I'm sure is obvious by now. Who my type is I'm not quite certain but if Benecio Del Toro decided to give me a call I would be more than certain. Of course if Michael Madsen came to see me I would be more than certain to show him he was my type what woman wouldn't. There are a lot of different guys in the world but Michael Madsen is a totally perfect male specimen and the perfect example of gorgeous in every sense of the word, I'm saying. So what else is there dear diary ? Need I say more ??? I think not. Good-night dear diary and good-night dear void.

Monday, October 4, 2004

More and more and more of who else ? me

Dear Diary,

        I'm not going to say hello , hi or even good evening because frankly I'm not in the mood to be cute nor funny. I could make an attempt to not come to you dear diary to complain about this, that and the other but I would rather not. I would just prefer to say what's on my mind and be done with it. I am surrounded by different guys at work which is never horrible. The horrible part is that none of the guys has yet to ask me out not one. None of the guys come to me just to make conversation which would be a welcome change for me in my daily rounds at work. All though I have to say that I might not be some cover of a magazine or some glamorous celebrity who wakes up in the morning looking like some walking Revlon commercial but I think I'm a pretty average looking female with a sense of humor as well. On the other hand I  feel like a dork coming to you dear diary but that's what I feel half the time. I either come to you complaining or I come to you with some very silly thought but I don't think that you mind dear diary. Of course I'm going to tell you what's on my mind whether you like it or not which I've done anyway. Who else could I tell these thoughts to but you dear diary ? Though it's  better than going to a psychiatrist and paying them plenty of money which I'm sure would end up paying for some million dollar home only to find that I'm perfectly normal. I would rather come to you dear diary and save the money in my pocket for something that I want instead. I'm sure that you understand me dear diary, at least I hope so.......

Sunday, October 3, 2004

Sunday's Thoughts

Dear Diary,

       Greetings from Atlanta, Georgia and good evening . I have a few thoughts today as usual . The famous poet Robert Frost once wrote I like to find the folks getting out in spring, Raking the dooryard, working near the house. Later they get out further in the fields.... The fields are stripped to lawn, the garden patches stripped to bare ground, the maple trees to whips and poles. Well today I did a little bit of yard work a plethora of yard activities . I raked up a little bit of pine straw, picked up a few pine cones and watered the front lawn . Robert Frost would have said that a little bit of yard work is good for the soul .

         You can tell that Autumn has arrived because the air is crisp and the leaves are changing little by little. It's getting time for hot apple cider, candy corn, pumpkins and Halloween decorations. Around this time of year it's nice to curl up in a warm blanket with a hand full of candy corn and read a good book or watch an old movie on t.v. with popcorn. I like when Autumn arrives because there's something magical about the month of October. Nothing is better dear diary than turning out the lights, reading a good scary story with a flashlight that's my most favorite part of Autumn dear diary. I wonder if anyone else feels the same way.

          Though it might seem weird that I run to you to tell you these things but you are the only one who understands me dear diary. Other people might think that the thoughts in my head are quite strange to say the least. I don't know if it's weird that I always come back to you or if the thoughts in my head are weird. Today was one of those days that I felt pretty good. Maybe it's the seasons changing or the weather but I actually feel like I'm coming to life in a whole different way I just can't explain it. I think that Robert Frost would have enjoyed this time of year as much as I do.

          What do you think dear diary ???? I wonderwhat it's like in Salem, Massachusetts during this time of year ? I imagine that in this time of year around Salem spirits are walking the earth, witches are riding around on their broom sticks and the Headless Horseman is still searching for the one who stole his head or maybe that's just me.

Friday, October 1, 2004

More of me

Dear Diary,

       Good evening dear diary here I am again. Well as usual work kept me busy. I have to say that John Kerry did pretty good in last night's debate. I feel that John Kerry should keep up with what he did in debate as he continues in this presidential election. In my opinion he has my vote and that's all I have to say politically.

      What I'm about to say is on a more personal note. My co workers complain about their husbands getting on their nerves but I feel differently. I have to say that I would like to meet someone, fall in love and get married. I would like for someone to know me someone other than you dear diary. I would like to think that eventually I will meet someone and I will be with that person for the rest of my life. I'm sure no one could put up with me forever but you never know. I'm not sure right now but things can change. Is this normal dear diary ??????? Good night dear diary it's getting late.

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

Entry for Tuesday

Dear Diary,

       Good evening it's me again. Well here I am with the latest news in my life. I've been teaching religious education as an aide for a little while. I've been teaching 2nd graders. The kids are great as well as smart. I don't know if I'm any good at being a religious education catechist but who knows. I don't know if I've grown or changed or whatever is supposed to happen to me. I wonder what the 2nd graders are learning from me, if anything at all ? I really like the kids I really do. The kids are wonderful I'm really proud of myself for sticking with being an aide I could have just said the heck with it and quit but I didn't.

Things are pretty good despite my non-existent love life which I've mentioned one too many times already. On a different note the weather was great today. Hurricane Jeanne decided not to stick around. We finally got some sunshine in my neck of the woods which is fine by me. My other job is keeping me busy which is nothing new. I always come back to you dear diary I always do. Maybe its alright that I come to you who else would I tell my exciting secrets to ? I could go on and on and on and on but you would more than likely tire of me so I'll quit while I'm ahead. Good night dear diary. Good night dear void. Sweet dreams for now.

Monday, September 27, 2004

Today's Thoughts

Dear Diary,

     Hello good evening. Well the weather here has been great, just kidding. Hurricane Jeanne has been causing lots of problems for many people in Florida and here in Georgia. Jeanne is Florida's 4th hurricane in 6 weeks. Here in Georgia we have gotten tons of rain and wind which has just about gotten on my nerves. Well dear diary the weather is not why I have come to talk to you I just had to add my 2 cents.

     Work has been keeping me busy as usual, never an interesting moment in my life of course. There has been a lot of nice looking guys here at work but of course they are all taken which says a lot about my luck doesn't dear diary ? After a while you must get tired of me talking about my non-existent love life. You would like it if I just dug up something new and exciting but I have none of that sorry to say dear diary. What I'm trying to say might sound pathetic but I'm just saying. So any conclusions dear diary ??? Neither do I isn't that a shame ????? What do you care right dear diary ???? I'm sure no one else does either.



Saturday, September 25, 2004

Ordinary Thoughts

Dear Diary,

     Let me start by saying good evening dear diary. Today my family and I had gone to an International Festival at my church which was fun. I got to taste foods from different parts of the world. I have to say that Poland has terrible food so does Russia, Cuba, Jamaica, Ireland and Bolivia just to name a few. I can say that the only good thing about Bolivia really is its coffee. I also saw an Elvis impersonator at the festival and to be honest he was horrible. He had on a bad wig, he sung by a karoake machine and tons of women were running up to him like he was the real Elvis which was laughable. I have to say this the Mariachi band was great. If you don't know what a Mariachi band is dear diary let me tell you. A Mariachi band is a Mexican street band. None of the guys looked like Antonio Banderas though. None of the guys came close to looking as jaw-dropping gorgeous as Antonio Banderas and I really don't think that any guy could at least I don't think so dear diary but you never know, you just never know. I was just thinking that it's weird that you can go to different parts of the world without having to get on a plane, drive a car or to step on a train. You can go to different parts of the world without even having to pack a bag or a toothbrush isn't that something dear diary ? Of course I have to say this though the United States still has the best tasting food which is its hamburgers, hot dogs and its desserts which no one could ever doubt.

Dear diary I wonder if I'm the only one with thoughts like these....what do you think dear diary ????

Thursday, September 23, 2004


Dear Diary,

Good evening dear diary. Autumn is arriving slowly but surely. It will soon be time for apple cider and curling up with a warm blanket. Pretty soon there will be stores selling pumpkins and fragrant candles and decorations for everyone to buy. I especially like this time of year when you can practically smell autumn in the air. The trees go all gold, brown, red, yellow and red. You can almost smell the wonderful aroma of apple pie and cinnamon in the air. To me Autumn is the best time of year. What I like about Autumn is cookies right from the oven and apple cider on a cool autumn day. Dear diary Autumn is my favorite time of year. What do you think dear diary ?

I think it's time for candy corn and sleeping late on weekends and dozing off to an old movie that you've seen a dozen times. Autumn brings to mind warm baths and drinking hot cocoa with marshmallows just because. Autumn brings to mind all of those things dear diary.

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

New Beginning

Dear Diary,

Hello again dear diary. I abandoned you for a while because I was feeling a little out of sorts. Work is still keeping me busy as usual which I'm sure you can remember me telling you. A few things have happened to me since the last time that we talked which I will tell you. Let me begin where I left off since the last time I started back teaching at my church with the second graders. If anyone is looking for the fountain of you they might want to start with young kids.

The reason that I stopped talking to you dear diary which I'm sure you are dying to know is that I have become a little tired of things happening in the world such as the War In Iraq. Every day more and more people and soldiers are dying and nothing seems to change. I guess I felt like I didn't have anything left to say dear diary but I'm back and I really want to talk again once more. It's just that you are the only one who wants to hear what I have to say whether it's interesting or not because I wasn't born as the world's greatest writer as you dear diary can clearly see.

The only thing that hasn't changed dear diary is that I'm still quite single not that I'm complaining. Brad Pitt is still happily married sad to say at least for me that is. No GQ models are rushing to date me which is hard to understand to say the least, just kidding dear diary. It's good to be talking to you once again it really is. I wonder if anyone will come along and read these little bits of my life I doubt it dont you dear diary ......... 

Wednesday, September 1, 2004

Other Thoughts

Dear Diary,

     I don't want this entry to alarm anyone but we had a bomb threat at my work but I'm quite fine. This might sound funny but I felt like I was going to see Keanu Reeves running up to my job like in the movie "Speed". I wouldn't mind being rescued by a cute guy of course that goes without saying.

Later in the day everything went back to normal. My morning was just a little active is all. At least I dug up something new to tell you dear diary. I woke up this morning but I didn't expect to hear about a bomb threat. Anyone else would laugh at the thoughts I have. It seems like I can only be myself with you dear diary. With bomb threats its possible that I need a nice looking bodyguard one that looks as nice as Kevin Costner of course that definitely goes without saying don't you think dear diary ??? Am I making any sense dear diary ??? Maybe I am an alien from another planet who knows. I can't get any more nuts wouldn't you say ???


Tuesday, August 31, 2004

I'm A Mixed Nut

Dear Diary,

Hello again I am what you call a mixed nut. I am a little weird for telling you my thoughts instead of telling this to someone. I just think that I feel comfortable coming to you and telling you things instead of telling someone how I feel. I talk as much as a fish with people face to face.

If I ever do find a boyfriend he will tell me that I need to talk to him instead of to my diary. I find something to say and I run to you or my notebooks. A guy would say that it's time for me to talk instead of writing it down. Maybe none of this makes sense but maybe it does. I need a guy's advice on how to say what's really on my mind. How long can I talk to you dear diary ???? No guy is going to want a girlfriend who runs to her diary am I right ?????


Monday, August 30, 2004

Another day , Another thought

Dear Diary,

Hello again as you might have figured its me. I came to update you on my life. Today work kept me busy which is pretty much every day except Saturday and Sunday. Once again dear diary I contributed to the gross national product and tomorrow I'll go to work and do it again.

You probably get tired of me telling you the same things. Today how about I tell you something else. I have a crush on a guy at work which I shall for now call him G.K. who happens to be better looking than any G.Q. model by far. I have never spoken my feelings out loud nor shall I. I know that feelings are not good or bad they are just what they are. Dear diary I don't think that you care about the fact that I have a crush on a guy at all. You are waiting for me as usual to dig up something new.

Dear dear diary you are still my one and only friend that I can tell my thoughts to. Someone else might tell me to shut up and get a life but you are the only one that will listen to my endless stream of complaints and thoughts that roll through my head.

Before I go I just want to say that I'm still waiting for Vin Diesel to call but it looks like my chances are getting slimmer and slimmer what do you think dear diary ??????


Wednesday, August 25, 2004

Just Something New


It's late yet I can't seem to go to sleep tonight

I can hear plenty of sounds

the wind blowing , croaking frogs and cars going faster than the speed of light.


All I do is toss and turn alone in my bed

staring deep into my dark room

as thoughts flood my head.


Still I toss and turn until I end up on my back

half tangled under sheets and blankets

as my room floods to black.


Maybe sooner or later I'll just close my eyes

patiently waiting for another day

and a morning filled with a perfect sunrise.



Monae' Doyle

Sunday, August 22, 2004

Just Thinking

Dear Diary,

Hello again without a doubt you already know who this is. It's kind of late in the evening. I thought that I would drop by and chat a little while so here I am. You probably wonder when I'll dig up something new to tell you so today I have something new to tell which should make you happy. Today was a fun day for me which began with a trip to a nearby pool at a recreation center. The water at the pool was fabulously warm. I did a little bit of swimming though some might call it attempting to swim but I call what I do swimming.

Most of the time I come to you and talk about the fact that I'm still not dating or that I don't have a boyfriend. After a while you get tired of saying the same thing time and time again. I don't know how long I will be single but sometimes I wonder if I should just become a nun, just kidding. Being single has its good points I can look at all the guys I want and enjoy it. There's plenty of time to join a convent, just kidding. Once again dear diary I was making an attempt to be funny. Being single can be lonely sometimes especially at night. Its hard to sleep alone sometimes but having a bed to oneself can also be nice.

Dear diary I know that I come to you and I complain what this or that. Sometimes I get tired of myself and all of my little bits of crap. I don't think that anyone else but you dear diary cares about the thoughts that run through my head from time to time. It's nice to be able to come to you and voice my problems, complaints and wonderful days. I'm sure that things for me will change I'm just not sure of when or how but they will change. Who knows maybe Vin Diesel will give me a call you never know you just never know.

Saturday, August 21, 2004

Today's Thoughts

Dear Diary,

Here I am again Miss Halle Berry ok I'm kidding dear diary that was me attempting to be cute. I realize that no one online has come to read my diary so I don't have to worry about the things that I say. I was worried about the things that I would tell you dear diary because I thought that people on the internet would come to read my thoughts and end up taking my thoughts the wrong way. I think it would be interesting if someone actually took the time to read my thoughts that I write to you dear diary but no one has.

It's time to tell you what I did today so here it goes today we went to a late mass at my church which is St. Philip Benizi. I went with my family which is always nice. As usual dear diary I don't have any plans on a Saturday night but to come and talk with you about a few things that would probably never interest anyone in the first place. I guess its not surprising that I don't have any plans because I never really make any plans to do anything anyway. I know that in order to have plans one has to make plans to do something that would be considered a plan.

Someone else might think nothing that I have to say is of much interest. I don't know if I'm making any sense dear diary but I just have to let you know what I'm thinking and why. Since no one is reading my diary I don't think that I need to hold back the things that I feel by not revealing them. Well once again its time to say good bye at least for now. We will talk again soon.

Thursday, August 19, 2004

Just More Thoughts

Dear Diary,

Hello. Here I am again and I thought I would come and tell you my thoughts as I usually do. I have tried to be really flirty with different guys but that doesn't seem to work. I have tried being cute but nothing seems to make guys notice me. Maybe it's just me dear diary. Maybe I am doing things wrong. I need the advice of men, cute guys need to apple a.s.a.p that's just me being funny dear diary.

I think that I have a great sense of humor I just think that guys are not noticing how cute I really am. Maybe I could try being me again but that doesn't work either. Who knows maybe finding someone takes time but this being patient is beginning to seem endless for me. I will continue to try being flirty and cute but something has work or I am going to start feeling like I am some alien freak from another planet that has yet to be discovered. What do you think dear diary??????

Monday, August 16, 2004

New Thoughts

Dear Diary,

Hello and good evening . I woke up feeling really good . Work kept me busy but I felt good all day long . Today I was extremely happy . Dear diary I dug up something new to talk about for a change which is new for me. I have some really good news so let me tell you this very moment . I am going back to being an assistant teacher for 2nd grade Sunday school . I will be working and teaching so my schedule will be going back to being busy . I don't think that I will have the time to think about what guy isn't noticing me . I was too happy today to even think about what guy wasn't taking the time to notice me . Today was one of my better days . I still feel pretty good overall . It's just weird you wake up and you just feel pretty good for no good reason except the fact that you feel good . Dear diary you are the only one that I come to when I want to share my thoughts . I don't know many people who would want to hear all of my crap . So dear dear diary this was one extremely great day . Good night dear diary.

Thursday, August 12, 2004

More and more and more thoughts

Dear Diary ,

Here I am again which I'm sure is no big surprise .........laugh out loud. I was thinking maybe no one will be interested in my thoughts , maybe no one will understand the thoughts rolling in my head , maybe no one wants to hear the constant whining and complaining that I usually tell you about , maybe no one cares . Dear diary with all that I tell you maybe people will think that I am some alien from another planet . I won't always be like this . I think that it might just take time for me to find someone and when I do I will have different things to tell you instead of this constant complaining when I come to you with all of my useless whining which might bore others but never you dear diary.

Maybe I should put an ad out on billboards all across America - SOULMATE WANTED FOR A LIFETIME OF FRIENDSHIP AND LOVE . IF OFFERING THE SAME LEAVE YOUR NAME AND NUMBER AT THE BILLBOARD THANKS .........just kidding billboards would be pushing it a bit I think . Dear diary am I nuts or what ? never mind don't answer that .

More Thoughts

Dear Diary ,

Hello dear diary here I am again . I have been doing a lot to get guys to notice me . I find myself smiling a little more and trying to make conversation with guys that I see at work . Dear diary I'm not trying to complain but nothing I do seems to really work with any guys that I talk to . It might be that I need advice from a guy's perspective because it could be that I'm doing things wrong in trying to catch the attention of guys . Dear diary once again you sit here quietly hoping that for once  I might dig up something new to talk about but I never do . I would just like to find someone that I could be friends with first before moving into something else .

Dear diary it's highly possible that I annoy you with all of my complaints and whining about this , that and the other. It's just that you are the only one that I talk to when it comes to things like this . You are my only friend . Anyone else would lose patience with me and all of my numerous thoughts and whining . Who knows one of these days maybe I might dig up something new and a little more interesting you never know . Sounds hopeful doesn't it ?

Monday, August 9, 2004

Just Thinking

Dear Diary,

I haven't come to you in a while because I haven't had much to say up until now .  Well more than anything I have missed talking to you , coming to you and sharing  my thoughts with you . Work has been keeping  me pretty busy . Today you might be surprised to hear I've been noticing guys more and more . If I didn't notice guys people would say that there was cause for alarm . If I didn't notice guys I would see cause for alarm ( laugh out loud ) . 

 These last couple of days I have been feeling pretty good which is rare for me to say .  I think sometimes that there's something wrong with me but then I realize that it's the guys who don't notice me . I may not be some runway model but perhaps the guys that don't notice me have the problem . All in all these last couple of days have been good for me despite the fact that I haven't been able to come to you with my thoughts . Perhaps it might be weird for some to think that I'm still keeping a diary at this age but I don't really care . This is my life, my thoughts and my diary . 

I might have bad days dear diary  but I know that things will go the other way too .

Sunday, July 18, 2004

Being Single

Dear Diary,

Good evening dear diary . What I'm about to say I feel compelled to tell you . It's lonely never having had a boyfriend which I'm sure no one else would care to know . I would like to find someone to fall in love with not just someone , a guy . I would like to fall asleep with that guy next to me at night , I would like to go for a walk in the park with him , I would like to hold hands during a scary movie with him , I would like to share my day with him , I would like to talk on the telephone with him , I would like to see what it feels like to miss him while he's at work , I would like to watch him shave early in the morning , I would like to smell his cologne on his clothes , I would like to go to a restaurant with him , I would really like to share my bed with him during the day and during the night , I want to watch the news with him , I would like to do a million different things with him .  Dear diary is that too much to ask for ?

It's hard to sleep alone at night . I wake up and there's no one there . I have a million pillows but there's only me . I find myself wondering what it would be like to fall in love . I wonder about the things I would say to him and what he would say to me . I wonder if you are the only one who understands me dear diary . I just want to fall in love and I want for that someone to love me just the same . Do I dare to hope ? Do I dare ?

Monday, July 12, 2004

Just thinking

Dear Diary,

Today is July 12,2004 and here I am once again . I have to say that every day feels like I'm having the same day . Nothing has happened out of the ordinary for me as of yet . I am still coming to you dear diary and sharing all of my secrets as I have done before . You are my only friend dear diary . I still wonder if any one else understands my thoughts besides you . If someone were to tell me that they had read my diary I would probably wonder why . I don't think of myself as a interesting person . I know I really couldn't put my thoughts to paper because that's just too permanent for me . My thoughts on paper will most likely end up in some museum for curious oddities . I can't see my thoughts on display under glass for all of the world to see . I can't imagine anyone reading any of this . Someone like me would keep a diary locked away in an attic somewhere left to collect dust and mold. Age would simply yellow its pages and its edges tattered .

Sunday, July 11, 2004

Random Thoughts

Dear Diary,

Today is July 11,2004. I spent a weekend at Indian Springs Campground which was a fun trip. As usual I didn't meet any guys which really is no suprise. I spent a weekend with my family which was nice. I wonder if I'll ever find someone to love and someone who will love me in return. It's not like I'm waiting for George Clooney or Fabio to call me it's just that I'm hoping that someone will come along. Sometimes it feels like I'm invisible to the eyes of men. Dear Diary your probably tired of me complaining about this or complaining about that. Your the only one that I tell my thoughts to dear dear diary. Anyone else would probably say........ENOUGH ALREADY !!! Your the only one that I tell my secrets to which is pathetic I know. Who else would I share my thoughts with dear diary and what guy would love a woman who still finds a need to keep a diary ?

Sunday, July 4, 2004

4th of July thoughts

Dear Diary,

Happy 4th of July !!  People all over the world are in the middle of celebration while fireworks fill the night with clusters of light which dazzle the eyes of the young and old alike. Dear diary I am no poet so excuse my manner in which I speak which is without eloquence. Well enough with that let's get back to me. Today I had a wonderful day with my mom, my dad, my sister and my nieces. We had a picnic, time at the pool and we did the usual things that a family does which is sharing in one another's company.

Dear diary at this very moment outside of my window there are fireworks going off in the night . I can hear the pop and crack of all of them all and then there's different colors making the night explode into an amazing work of art that is caught in the night sky. The night sky is flooded with sound, light and color. Dear diary today was a day of too much perfection and I don't mind that at all. Today I was quite happy. Right now I'm not going to complain about not having a boyfriend or what have you I will save that for another time dear diary. Things over all were good. You have to remember that sometimes things will feel bad but then you also have to remember that things can go the other way too and that was the kind of day that I had. Good night dear diary. Happy happy happy happy 4th of July to all.