Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Today's Thoughts

Dear Journal once more good evening here I am again. Well Christmas is a few days gone and let me tell you what's happening in the world.

Stores are already putting out Valentines Day decorations for example : big red heart wreaths, candles in the shape of hearts, heart shaped pillows and decorative cards. Perhaps I will find myself a Valentine ? Though I'm really hoping to just hear those 5 little words "will you be my Valentine ?" Because I will certainly jump at the chance to be someone's Valentine which would be a new experience for me. The thing is its not even February yet and already stores are filled with hearts and big red balloons. Maybe a guy will ask me to be his because you never know. I'm sure that floral shops will certainly be busy come the month of February with the making of bouquets flooded with flowers and poetic declarations of love. Who knows maybe I might end up with my own bed of roses, I'm hoping dear journal I'm hoping.

Monday, December 27, 2004

A Little Background....if your Michael Vick We Need To Talk

Dear Journal Christmas is now officially gone and New Year's Eve is upon us as well as a whole new year. During New Year's Eve a lot of people usually make resolutions whether its to go on a diet, not doing certain things or working towards some goal. I on the other hand I never stick to the resolutions that I make in the first place even though I try or at least say I will stick to it. My resolution that I will try to make is to stop talking about my non-existent love life which seems to be the major topic of my journal. Talking about my non-existent love life is beginning to become tiring even to me so that is my resolution. Of course I could say that I'm going to try to lose weight but I don't think that will last for 2 seconds to be quite honest with you dear journal so I really can't stick to that resolution. But I could say lots of things.

On a different less uninteresting note the weather here is still a little bit cold though winter's deep freeze is letting up quite a bit which is fine by me. I feel that if it has to be cold it should be followed by a few inches or more of snow or at least some little hints of white powder.

On a more opposite note its time for FOOTBALL season which I'm sure tons of guys are loving this time of the season. Dear journal I'm sure if you ask guys all over the world you could say its a perfect time for cold beer and a comfortable recliner which I'm sure many guys would say that those two things are a must during this time of the season. I DON'T know much about football I just can't get into it except one huge thing - Michael Vick. Any woman will say that's the only reason they sit through an entire football game just to see Mr. Vick himself in action even I would have to agree with that.

That's about all dear journal so good night and I will return soon hopefully with a few exciting updates in my life one never can tell not even me.

Saturday, December 25, 2004

Thoughts For December 25th

Dear Journal its officially December 25th which is Christmas. I got a few things which I have to be grateful for. I was hoping more than anything for a boyfriend this year. I could have asked for anything within reason yet I wanted the impossible.

All in all Christmas seemed to take forever to get here and now its practically gone. After days and days and weeks and weeks it came and went. I didn't make a list this year of what I wanted because I only wanted one thing, one huge thing. What I really want most of all is my 1st kiss - my very 1st kiss. Everything is a big deal to me. I don't know dear journal I just don't know. Merry Christmas dear journal.

Monday, December 20, 2004


Dear Journal I was thinking about something that kind of brought up more stuff in my what I like to call "there's something wrong with me" syndrome. As everyone knows after Christmas comes New Year's Eve which I am so not looking forward to. I never look forward to New Year's Eve or Valentines Day for that matter. I'm sure many would ask why so I will be more than willing to tell you but in my own way. I'm the only one who never gets kissed by a guy though it would be nice to be kissed by a guy who loves me and I loving him in return.

I've never had a boyfriend to share these thoughts with and it would be awkward to share these thoughts with anyone else. I just find it easier to tell these thoughts with myself. I know that it sounds weird but it works and at least I'm consistent often enough. So here I have given you some background in the chronicles of my life thus far. Good night dear journal.

Sunday, December 19, 2004

What I Want For Christmas

Well good evening dear journal here I am again. I'm not going to complain like I usually do so I'm sure that will be a welcome change. Well its almost December 25th which is officially a holiday which the world knows as Christmas. I haven't really told anyone what I want for Christmas which is one of the things that I am going to have do before its too late. I'm sure people are curious to know what I want for Christmas so I came to you dear journal to get my thoughts clear. I could ask for a couple of things like clothes, CD's, a few items from the Victoria Secrets store, jewelry or just a little something. What I actually want dear journal doesn't come from a store and its what you might call a tall order to fill. The one thing that I want for Christmas is a "BOYFRIEND". I know that sounds like a huge something to ask for but its all I have ever wanted more than anything. Some people might laugh if I told them but I have to be honest. Out of all the things in the world that I could ask for I end up asking for a boyfriend. I guess its better than asking for money or a sweater that I might receive for Christmas yet never wear. I guess you can say I might not get what I want but I just hope that I do. Who knows maybe Cupid will arrive a little early this year and work a little miracle just for me......maybe......maybe......

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Saturday's Thoughts

Hello greetings and salutations and all of that other stuff. Well here I am again. Today all kinds of stores were packed and filled with people which I'm sure is not shocking since there's only a few more days until "Christmas". People were rushing around doing their pre-Christmas shopping which by looking at the parking lots today seemed to be the biggest shopping day of the year. Me, I was one of them but that's not what I wanted to talk about.

Today there was a cashier working at the World Market store today and let me tell you dear journal he was a nice looking guy. The problem was another cashier came along and ruined the moment which when it comes to men that always seems to be my luck. I have zero luck with men. Someone probably needs to hit me over the head with a stupid stick. I have complained a lot to you dear journal that I know its sickening but I just had to tell you my news today. I just want to know what its like to fall in love one time in my life is that too much to ask for ?? I just don't know.

Friday, December 17, 2004

Depressing Day

Today I'm having one of those not so great days. I'm feeling sorry for myself and I'm wallowing. Christmas is almost here and I will be single yet again and honestly dear journal that is nothing new. New Year's will be rolling around and you guess it I will NOT be getting kissed at the stroke of midnight. It's awful being single during the holidays. I am wallowing in a lot of my crap. There should be a support group for people like me - Hello and yes I'm wallowing in self pity. Is there anything more depressing than that ?? I think not !!!!!

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

A Little Bit of Weird News

Here I am as usual so good evening dear journal. I have a little bit of weird news to share with you tonight so here it goes. My news has to do with "Bubble Wrap" of all things. I know your probably thinking why BUBBLE WRAP ? Well once in a while I would like to share something a little bit out of the ordinary. Bubble Wrap that most ubiquitous of protective packaging was introduced in the 1960's.  In 1957, engineers Alfred Fielding and Marc Chavannes originally conceived Bubble Wrap as a wallpaper. Clearer heads prevailed, and the product was re-invisioned as a packaging material. The odd part is that there is actually a Bubble Wrap Appreciation Day which is the last Monday in January. Here is a little bit of interesting information for Bubble Wrap enthusiasts - one square foot of bubble wrapping contains approximately 810 bubbles. Office Depot for example, sells enough Bubble Wrap each year to wrap around the earth twice.

On a more eventful note my 2nd grade Religious Education class is had their 1st Christmas party with me. The kids enjoyed the party and their excitement was quite evident. I'm glad that the party went off without any problems at all. My kids are wonderful and quite smart I must say. I enjoy them with every class. I just wonder if they will remember me a few months from now when I am no longer with them. I will remember them that's for sure dear journal. I guess that's the important thing that I really need to remember. This was quite a day for me that's for sure. For now good night dear journal I'm sure that I will be back soon as usual.

Monday, December 13, 2004

A Few Thoughts

Good evening Winter's deep freeze has officially arrived. It is quite cold and beyond freezing. With weather like this there should at least be snow or a hint of flurries in the forecast. I think its only proper for a little snow to fall with the temperature below 0.

On a different subject everyone said that the sky was full of meteor showers but I didn't see a thing in the sky except the usual stars which you don't have to have a telescope to see. Looking for meteor showers you might as well pull a muscle or two in order to see something at all. I really didn't see a hint of meteors or showers for that matter. I wonder if I'm the only one who didn't see anything. I can't say that I saw one little meteor shower at all.  I am thinking that I might just call NASA and sue for false advertising. Though I'm not at all shocked . I bet I would have had a better chance of finding Nessie the Loch Ness Monster or even Bigfoot for that matter or better yet finding a needle in a haystack.

Sunday, December 12, 2004

Lake Lanier's Magical Nights of Lights

Good evening dear journal here I am again. First things first - I went with my parents and two of my nieces to Lake Lanier's "Magical Nights of Lights".

Lake Lanier's Magical Nights of Lights was beyond amazing and description. The various lights were quite picture perfect. They had lights of many shapes, sizes and color. At Lake Lanier they had amusement park rides, cotton candy, hot dogs, hot apple cider and the roasting of marshmallows. It was fun for the young and old. The North Pole had fallen to earth and come to life. This place was totally real. Dear journal the aromas at this place was beyond great. You could smell the marshmallows roasting, the cotton candy, the hot dogs cooking and Christmas itself became an aroma of pure rich delight.

Kids were up way past their bed times riding on rides, eating cotton candy and getting sticky fingers from roasted marshmallows and spun cotton candy. This place had it all and then some. Everyone should experience this place to learn the true meaning of Christmas time. I still can't believe all that I saw and heard. After having been to this one place I know what inspired the story of Peter Pan in fact I could have written it myself after this night. Dear journal there is no place on earth like this. Who could have ever thought of something so wonderful ? I can't wait until next year to do it all over again.

The only sad part for me is that I saw couples there holding hands, hugging and kissing. Being single it was hard to see. I wanted to be one of those women in one of those moments. I couldn't really help but look and be envious. I wish I could have been one of those women. Everything else was great and worth every minute. 

Saturday, December 11, 2004

News for another Saturday

Good evening its me again but of course who else would it be but me ? So here it is a particularly cold Saturday evening. It almost feels like winter with weather like this. Though it should only be cold if it is followed by a few inches or more of snow in my opinion of course. Tonight I went over to my cousin's house which is always a production. He is a father of young children and he is also a husband which is saying a lot.

What I am about to say might sound a little weird but its still true. I am hoping to receive a boyfriend for Christmas. I wonder if its odd for a 28 year old woman to want a boyfriend for Christmas. I have to say that I don't want to have children of my own that would be a comedy in itself. Some people are good at being parents if you ask me I don't think that I would be. I prefer being an aunt to my nieces and nephews which I'm sure they would agree with me being an aunt. I can spoil them all and not have any responsibility for raising them and that part I enjoy most of all. I think parenting requires a lot of growing up and taking responsibility for the health and well being of a child. I am not ready for being someone's mom its just not in me to be given the role of parent not in the least. Right now I just want to jump into "The Many Rituals of Dating" but that also requires finding someone which doesn't seem to be happening at the prior moment.

I really wish that finding someone were as easy as it is seen in "Bridget Jones' Diary" now that would be something. I want her life especially her boyfriend. I keep a diary which only tells of living "The Single Life". I could write a book on that. "Living the Single Life" which wouldn't end up being on Oprah's book club list.

Friday, December 10, 2004


Hello again good evening here I am.  Well I said that there was no nice looking guys here at my job but  there is more than one actually. I haven't become a flirt I just want to admit a few truths. There's quite a few gorgeous guys here at my work.  The guys each have certain physical attributes ( eyes, a beard, style of dressing, a nice smile, height and voice ) etc. etc. etc.

In other news interrupting his  hibernation, the world's most famous groundhog cast a shadow Tuesday over a Capitol hill debate about wasteful Government spending. Punxsutawney Phil, noted seasonal prognosticator was awakened and hauled before the TV cameras in an attempt to rebut charges that $100,000  in federal funds for a weather museum in his hometown amounted to pork barrel spending.

"Pork" is a derogatory term used to describe government spending intended to benefit constituents of a particular lawmaker in hopes of gaining their support.

The Punxsutawney Weather Discovery Center was among about 12,000 grants for "special projects" -called "earmarks". On Capitol hill lawmakers inserted into the $388 billion spending bill that Congress sent to President Bush on Tuesday. From his Appropriations Committee , Representative Peterson was able to secure $100,000 for the Weather Museum. The $100,000 will go to buy displays for the educational museum, which will tell about the history, science, technology and folklore of weather said Peterson. The $100,000 amount was my figure but they wanted more. However it is known that Punxsutawney Phil  is normally aroused on Groundhog's Day which is February 2nd. It is said that if he sees his shadow, six more weeks of winter will follow.  How is it that so much can depend on a Groundhog ????? Someone please tell me.



Monday, December 6, 2004

News, news, news

First things first good evening. Well I have been under the weather recently from a cold so I haven't been able to come chat with you but here I am I'm on the comeback. Today I do have news. I haven't told a soul what I am about to tell you. I have news, news, news. I am greatly excited about what I'm about to share so bare with me. Today I took notice of a guy who occasionally comes up to my work to do some business. He isn't just a guy he is a great looking guy I would like to add. I had always wanted to ask him his name but I never did until today. Somehow I worked up the nerve to ask him. I won't mention his name I want to keep that to myself for now. Let me say again that he is great looking. I surprised myself today in going up to him and talking to him. I never went up to a guy and actually talked to him. This guy always smiles and says hello to me at work and for the first time I talked to him and it was great. Though I wish that I would have said more to him than just saying hello and by the way what's your name again ? I also wish that I would have told him what a nice looking guy he is which he definitely is. This guy this great looking guy I have to say he is far nicer looking than Vin Diesel, Johnny Depp, Brad Pitt and Tyrese I just hope that these guys don't mind me saying but this guy really was great. I am hoping that Vin, Johnny, Brad and Tyrese understand that they are no longer my #1 which I'm sure their girl friends and wives will appreciate.

Most of all dear journal I will never tell anyone what I tell you. I was quite proud of myself today for going up to this guy and talking to him. I really just hope that I see him again I really really do. My, my, my what secrets I tell you. What secrets I tell you indeed.

Friday, December 3, 2004

Under The Weather

Good evening here I am again well at least a little part of me anyway. I'm a little under the weather at the prior moment with a cold. It's almost Christmas and I'm coming down with a cold at the worse possible holiday of all holidays. Dear diary you might not be hearing from me for a while. I might as well be put in absolute isolation until I am recovered from this cold. I hope that I'm better in a day or two so at least I can feel halfway myself again. I feel like my head is under water which is not a fun feeling. I wonder if they could put me in the hospital in which they could prescribe Collin Firth or George Clooney to be my doctor I would happily be sick in the hospital for that.