Tuesday, August 31, 2004

I'm A Mixed Nut

Dear Diary,

Hello again I am what you call a mixed nut. I am a little weird for telling you my thoughts instead of telling this to someone. I just think that I feel comfortable coming to you and telling you things instead of telling someone how I feel. I talk as much as a fish with people face to face.

If I ever do find a boyfriend he will tell me that I need to talk to him instead of to my diary. I find something to say and I run to you or my notebooks. A guy would say that it's time for me to talk instead of writing it down. Maybe none of this makes sense but maybe it does. I need a guy's advice on how to say what's really on my mind. How long can I talk to you dear diary ???? No guy is going to want a girlfriend who runs to her diary am I right ?????


Monday, August 30, 2004

Another day , Another thought

Dear Diary,

Hello again as you might have figured its me. I came to update you on my life. Today work kept me busy which is pretty much every day except Saturday and Sunday. Once again dear diary I contributed to the gross national product and tomorrow I'll go to work and do it again.

You probably get tired of me telling you the same things. Today how about I tell you something else. I have a crush on a guy at work which I shall for now call him G.K. who happens to be better looking than any G.Q. model by far. I have never spoken my feelings out loud nor shall I. I know that feelings are not good or bad they are just what they are. Dear diary I don't think that you care about the fact that I have a crush on a guy at all. You are waiting for me as usual to dig up something new.

Dear dear diary you are still my one and only friend that I can tell my thoughts to. Someone else might tell me to shut up and get a life but you are the only one that will listen to my endless stream of complaints and thoughts that roll through my head.

Before I go I just want to say that I'm still waiting for Vin Diesel to call but it looks like my chances are getting slimmer and slimmer what do you think dear diary ??????


Wednesday, August 25, 2004

Just Something New


It's late yet I can't seem to go to sleep tonight

I can hear plenty of sounds

the wind blowing , croaking frogs and cars going faster than the speed of light.


All I do is toss and turn alone in my bed

staring deep into my dark room

as thoughts flood my head.


Still I toss and turn until I end up on my back

half tangled under sheets and blankets

as my room floods to black.


Maybe sooner or later I'll just close my eyes

patiently waiting for another day

and a morning filled with a perfect sunrise.



Monae' Doyle

Sunday, August 22, 2004

Just Thinking

Dear Diary,

Hello again without a doubt you already know who this is. It's kind of late in the evening. I thought that I would drop by and chat a little while so here I am. You probably wonder when I'll dig up something new to tell you so today I have something new to tell which should make you happy. Today was a fun day for me which began with a trip to a nearby pool at a recreation center. The water at the pool was fabulously warm. I did a little bit of swimming though some might call it attempting to swim but I call what I do swimming.

Most of the time I come to you and talk about the fact that I'm still not dating or that I don't have a boyfriend. After a while you get tired of saying the same thing time and time again. I don't know how long I will be single but sometimes I wonder if I should just become a nun, just kidding. Being single has its good points I can look at all the guys I want and enjoy it. There's plenty of time to join a convent, just kidding. Once again dear diary I was making an attempt to be funny. Being single can be lonely sometimes especially at night. Its hard to sleep alone sometimes but having a bed to oneself can also be nice.

Dear diary I know that I come to you and I complain what this or that. Sometimes I get tired of myself and all of my little bits of crap. I don't think that anyone else but you dear diary cares about the thoughts that run through my head from time to time. It's nice to be able to come to you and voice my problems, complaints and wonderful days. I'm sure that things for me will change I'm just not sure of when or how but they will change. Who knows maybe Vin Diesel will give me a call you never know you just never know.

Saturday, August 21, 2004

Today's Thoughts

Dear Diary,

Here I am again Miss Halle Berry ok I'm kidding dear diary that was me attempting to be cute. I realize that no one online has come to read my diary so I don't have to worry about the things that I say. I was worried about the things that I would tell you dear diary because I thought that people on the internet would come to read my thoughts and end up taking my thoughts the wrong way. I think it would be interesting if someone actually took the time to read my thoughts that I write to you dear diary but no one has.

It's time to tell you what I did today so here it goes today we went to a late mass at my church which is St. Philip Benizi. I went with my family which is always nice. As usual dear diary I don't have any plans on a Saturday night but to come and talk with you about a few things that would probably never interest anyone in the first place. I guess its not surprising that I don't have any plans because I never really make any plans to do anything anyway. I know that in order to have plans one has to make plans to do something that would be considered a plan.

Someone else might think nothing that I have to say is of much interest. I don't know if I'm making any sense dear diary but I just have to let you know what I'm thinking and why. Since no one is reading my diary I don't think that I need to hold back the things that I feel by not revealing them. Well once again its time to say good bye at least for now. We will talk again soon.

Thursday, August 19, 2004

Just More Thoughts

Dear Diary,

Hello. Here I am again and I thought I would come and tell you my thoughts as I usually do. I have tried to be really flirty with different guys but that doesn't seem to work. I have tried being cute but nothing seems to make guys notice me. Maybe it's just me dear diary. Maybe I am doing things wrong. I need the advice of men, cute guys need to apple a.s.a.p that's just me being funny dear diary.

I think that I have a great sense of humor I just think that guys are not noticing how cute I really am. Maybe I could try being me again but that doesn't work either. Who knows maybe finding someone takes time but this being patient is beginning to seem endless for me. I will continue to try being flirty and cute but something has work or I am going to start feeling like I am some alien freak from another planet that has yet to be discovered. What do you think dear diary??????

Monday, August 16, 2004

New Thoughts

Dear Diary,

Hello and good evening . I woke up feeling really good . Work kept me busy but I felt good all day long . Today I was extremely happy . Dear diary I dug up something new to talk about for a change which is new for me. I have some really good news so let me tell you this very moment . I am going back to being an assistant teacher for 2nd grade Sunday school . I will be working and teaching so my schedule will be going back to being busy . I don't think that I will have the time to think about what guy isn't noticing me . I was too happy today to even think about what guy wasn't taking the time to notice me . Today was one of my better days . I still feel pretty good overall . It's just weird you wake up and you just feel pretty good for no good reason except the fact that you feel good . Dear diary you are the only one that I come to when I want to share my thoughts . I don't know many people who would want to hear all of my crap . So dear dear diary this was one extremely great day . Good night dear diary.

Thursday, August 12, 2004

More and more and more thoughts

Dear Diary ,

Here I am again which I'm sure is no big surprise .........laugh out loud. I was thinking maybe no one will be interested in my thoughts , maybe no one will understand the thoughts rolling in my head , maybe no one wants to hear the constant whining and complaining that I usually tell you about , maybe no one cares . Dear diary with all that I tell you maybe people will think that I am some alien from another planet . I won't always be like this . I think that it might just take time for me to find someone and when I do I will have different things to tell you instead of this constant complaining when I come to you with all of my useless whining which might bore others but never you dear diary.

Maybe I should put an ad out on billboards all across America - SOULMATE WANTED FOR A LIFETIME OF FRIENDSHIP AND LOVE . IF OFFERING THE SAME LEAVE YOUR NAME AND NUMBER AT THE BILLBOARD THANKS .........just kidding billboards would be pushing it a bit I think . Dear diary am I nuts or what ? never mind don't answer that .

More Thoughts

Dear Diary ,

Hello dear diary here I am again . I have been doing a lot to get guys to notice me . I find myself smiling a little more and trying to make conversation with guys that I see at work . Dear diary I'm not trying to complain but nothing I do seems to really work with any guys that I talk to . It might be that I need advice from a guy's perspective because it could be that I'm doing things wrong in trying to catch the attention of guys . Dear diary once again you sit here quietly hoping that for once  I might dig up something new to talk about but I never do . I would just like to find someone that I could be friends with first before moving into something else .

Dear diary it's highly possible that I annoy you with all of my complaints and whining about this , that and the other. It's just that you are the only one that I talk to when it comes to things like this . You are my only friend . Anyone else would lose patience with me and all of my numerous thoughts and whining . Who knows one of these days maybe I might dig up something new and a little more interesting you never know . Sounds hopeful doesn't it ?

Monday, August 9, 2004

Just Thinking

Dear Diary,

I haven't come to you in a while because I haven't had much to say up until now .  Well more than anything I have missed talking to you , coming to you and sharing  my thoughts with you . Work has been keeping  me pretty busy . Today you might be surprised to hear I've been noticing guys more and more . If I didn't notice guys people would say that there was cause for alarm . If I didn't notice guys I would see cause for alarm ( laugh out loud ) . 

 These last couple of days I have been feeling pretty good which is rare for me to say .  I think sometimes that there's something wrong with me but then I realize that it's the guys who don't notice me . I may not be some runway model but perhaps the guys that don't notice me have the problem . All in all these last couple of days have been good for me despite the fact that I haven't been able to come to you with my thoughts . Perhaps it might be weird for some to think that I'm still keeping a diary at this age but I don't really care . This is my life, my thoughts and my diary . 

I might have bad days dear diary  but I know that things will go the other way too .