A Few Thoughts

Hello dear world

How are you ?? My friend Diane a.k.a. loststream asked me some questions that I wanted to answer not just for her but for all of you. If your reading this Diane I have to say you really got me thinking which is probably not a good thing....lol lol lol

Anyway.......one of Diane's questions to me are as follows:

> When did you begin writing ? Well as some of you might not know on Thursday July 1, 2004 it all began. I began writing here at J-Land when I was 28 years old. When it comes to my hand-written diary my writing began long before.

Why do you write in public now ? On August 21, 2004 I wrote that I realize that no one has come to read my diary. I didn't realize then that I would make friends with you my dear world my dear friends. I also wrote on July 1, 2004 that I wondered who would be interested in such thoughts as mine. Then one wonderful day Jeannette and you my dear friends opened your arms and welcomed me.

Diane also asks: Are your purposes of this public journal being fufilled ? Yes though I still don't see myself as a very interesting person

She also asks: Do I write to appease ( you ) my public readers ? Well I have to say that I feel that all of you have become friends and not just readers so I write because I want to share myself and my life with every single one of you.

Diane also recently commented that I seem far removed from my innermost thoughts and feelings that I hold in my heart and in my mind as I did when I first began my journal. I realize that I have drifted a bit from when I first began but I shall return little by little to where it all began on that Thursday I arrived at J-Land.

Let me rewind -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------< On July 2, 2004 I wrote "Maybe I'm from another planet like maybe the 3rd rock from the sun". I know that I'm not some alien from a distant planet. I am a human being who is trying to figure herself out a bit with no knowledge if I have learned anything if at all.

I have to admit that I'm still a pretty quiet person though I find that I talk to all of you more than I talk to anyone even now. Sometimes I may tell you more about what I watch or what I eat or where I have been but hopefully you all are getting a glimpse into who I am as a person.

My dear world she once wrote in a comment that reading my diary / journal is like reading a book....short chapters, funny tidbits, very emotionally entrancing and yes my dear Diane as you know from a photo of myself I sent you I am a real person. I think that I have changed but in some ways I haven't.

My dear dear friends....and you my dear friend Diane you understand my silliness, my daily goings on, my sudden burps or some would call them....mistakes. You understand when I'm a little so-so or if I'm just being ??? basically you keep with me through all of my ups, downs, twists and turns. Maybe one of these days I will have opened a door somewhere inside of me and you will be able to say "So that's where you've been all this time".

Yes my dear friends I'm still a little nuts but I know you will stick around because you my dear world are my cheering section so I shall continue on hopefully making you smile and being there for you. Have I answered any of your questions ????

Anywho......how are you these days ??? how is life treating you my dear world ?

Until we talk again....good-night and sweet dreams